Leadership

I haven't written in ages, not because I haven't had much to write but because I haven't had the head space to write. 

I want really more to ask a question today which I hope will start a conversation. Do most leaders experience loneliness??

After 14 years of being one of the founding leaders of Morecambe Community Church and West End Impact, its still one of main personal issues we deal with. We are trying to build a 'community' but we often don't feel part of that 'community'. As a leader people naturally look to you to lead. This can be very frustrating in a church plant when you don't have anyone to look up to, and at age 49 maybe you think you should have to look up to anyone any more but I do. There are still times of feeling lost and out of my depth and not knowing where to turn. There are particularly times when you just want to have friends!! Friends that don't look to you to lead them. You give out, give out and give out but there are so few people that give back. It can lead to deep loneliness. I don't know the solution properly to this problem yet as I am still going through it but I hope I get one soon. I am working on it and trying to build relationship outside my situation but my hope has always been that I would be able to have friendship within the community we are building. Do you think that is possible??